when it comes to you, it breaks me down

get it? don't you get it? why don't? it's all about you. everything is all you, your story! can you see what did i feel inside? why can't? even if you can't see it, why can you just try to feel it? try. just give it a shot. try to feel me, be me. can? no you don't. i know you can but you didn't want to. why? cause you are a freaking heart-less man. you do have a heart, everyone do have one right? but you didn't used your heart fully. let me tell you this one thing that i've hold for this past two month, i 'm freaking loving hating you. understand? no? why? i'm bad in speaking? no i'm not. hell not! it's because, you did not open your eyes for this words. you did not let your ears to hear what am i saying. you did not break your heart to listen for what am i trying to let you know. you fucking selfish kind of human being. you don't even know how to appreciate people's sacrifices. why? cause you did not use your brain fully to think about it. even for a second. just think about it, it's not going to blow out your mind, is it? so just, try or do think about it. think about all of this. use your eyes, heart, ears, and brain fully. can you? if doing this thing can kill you, or make you lost your breath forever, than i swear this, " i'll kill myself by blowing out my eyes, ripping out my heart, cut my ears and smash my head for letting my brain out, i know this is impossible plus ridiculous , but i'll find a way " . okay? this time i mean it, for real. wait, one last sentence, you're pathetic and i'm stupid. i know, thank you for keeping this on my mind.